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March 9th, 2011

It's been a while, LJ. It's been a while.

Living in Cronulla with Seamus now. And moving to Caringbah into a fancy schmancy new apartment at the end of the month.

Lifes good. At TAFE studying tourism.
Going to the Gold Coast for my bday which I'm heaps freakin keen for.



Miss you, LJ.

July 13th, 2010
When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...
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June 30th, 2010
fuck. i have been crying for like the last three and a half hours pretty much non stop... my body is just starting to ache. and like... i dont even know what im crying about anymore.
i dont have the energy for this. holy fuck.

May 6th, 2010

Dear livejournal,

Today I lost a kilo and a half. However, I have no idea why as all I did last night was eat scones that I made.
I can only gather that stuffing your face with scones has scientifically been proven to be the most efficent way to lose weight.

Love Tessa.

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April 29th, 2010

Gaaaay, posting this off my iPhone. I can post but can't see my f-list. I can go on the full site obviously but not from this app. Gay.

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April 22nd, 2010
Finally caved in and got a formspring...

Ask me questions! kgo!


March 13th, 2010
Mickey Avalon last night was fucking amazing! Took forever for him to get on, but it was well worth the wait.
Not saying too much in a public entry, but he is a fucking amazing kisser! OOOH YEAH! Though he probably shouldn't have written a song about having a big dick... But, he was coked off his head, so I won't judge him too harshly there... Could have had something to do with it.

Anyways, got to Blink at about 3, just before shut out... Was so psyched from the gig and the after-gig festivities :P
ah, Mickey (yeah, his dicks been in my mouth, so i feel that puts us on a first name basis) decided it would be fun to pour jack daniels all over everyone... and then red wine... red wine, in your eye - REALLY FUCKING HURTS! lol. was funny at the time, but i fucking stunk like booze, was surprised I got into blink...

Went with Krys, but he left soon after, so I made friends with two really hot guys and some chick and her two mates... We had a good time there...
Then weren't keen to go home, so we ended up at kings cross... again. this needs to stop happening. lol.
was at the most seedy strip club, this coked out stripper was just lying on the ground rolling around... most weirdest music, at one point she was rolling around on the ground to the cure >.>
Got over that pretty quickly, the girl and her two mates went home and I went back to the boys place in randwick... hahaha, good night indeed. hooked up with one of them, who looks like a splitting image of matt heafy... meow meeeeow. :D

got home at about 11.30 the next morning.

awesome friday night...

about to go out and do it all again! :D
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February 26th, 2010
can't sleep.

a little bit excited, and it's very fan girl of me... but mortiis replied back to me on something i sent him.
a little bit amazing. famous person! talking to me! oh yeah!
decided i want them to come to australia, and uh, i'm going to somehow make that happen.

maybe going to get piercings with byron tomorrow. i hope :)
that boy is also a little bit amazing <3 :)
even if he is stupie and doesn't like reznor.

got a lot of gigs coming up. tom jones on thursday. then the rest of march, we have... muscles, mickey avalon, amanda palmer and emilie autumn. gonna be so sweet!
was supposed to go to melbourne soundwave tomorrow.
the adelaide boys i met at the HIM sideshow had a spare ticket they were gonna give me, but couldn't be fucked going to melbourne... would have been great to see all those bands again! and seeing FNM instead of HIM.
Made a big mistake seeing them at soundwvae instead of HIM, oh well..

soundwave was great.
saw my lovely lovers, who i love :)

itching for some sex.
last time i was with byron i had my rags...
so, i havent had sex for like... two weeks. this... is a little bit insane. and its sending me crazy.
oh well, tomorrow :)

dunno what else to write about.

so i'll just finish.

oh yeah, mardi gras on saturday, that shits gonna be kick arse.

also... aidan, i miss the fool. havent seen him for a week.
hahaha. i love that kid. i see him as more of a friend now than i ever have, stupid monkey means a lot to me :)

couple of other sydney peeps who i love and have been seeing a lot of lately.
dear sydney people, you are great <3

February 18th, 2010
Stop me, oh, stop me
Stop me if you think that you've
Heard this one before
Stop me, oh, stop me
Stop me if you think that you've heard this one before

Nothing's changed
I still love you, oh, I still love you
...Only slightly, only slightly less than I used to, my love

I was delayed, I was way-laid
An emergency stop
I smelt the last ten seconds of life
I crashed down on the crossbar
And the pain was enough to make
A shy, bald, buddhist reflect
And plan a mass murder
Who said I'd lied to her ?

Oh, who said I'd lied because I never ? I never !
Who said I'd lied because I never ?
I was detained, I was restrained
And broke my spleen
And broke my knee
(and then he really lays into me)
Friday night in Out-patients
Who said I'd lied to her ?

Oh, who said I'd lied ? - because I never, I never
Who said I'd lied ? - because I never

And , so I drank one
It became four
And when I fell on the floor ...
...I drank more

Stop me, oh, stop me
Stop me if you think that you've
Heard this one before
Stop me, oh, stop me
Stop me if you think that you've heard this one before

Nothing's changed
I still love you, oh, I still love you
...Only slightly, only slightly less than I used to, my love

February 14th, 2010
dude, this is crazy.
he is just... so amazing. and funny. and hot.
and. yum.
and we have like a billion things in common.

last night, he was fucked off pills, cause we took them when we went back to his place, not in town, yes, weird... and he goes 'you met me at a very strange time in my life' and i was like 'how fight club of you' and his jaw just dropped, he was like 'what?! you know that?!'

i think... he is amazing.
and better yet, he thinks im amazing.

and it's cute, because he doesnt ever let go of me.
and he was like introducing me to his mates, and stuff.. and zomg. i want him.
like seriously... just want.

still havent slept since last night. we were just lying in bed for like 10 hours... it was amazing.
we could just lie there in utter silence for like half an hour, not even saying anything, just looking at each other and smiling... and like... omg. i just.
dont even know...
how to...

its ridiculous! i've never felt so comfortable with someone i havent known for years. just doesnt make sense.

best fucking valentines day ever... eeeever!!!! <3

February 1st, 2010
I can't even get changed without being reminded of him.
There's bite marks all over my tits. And my back, shoulders... neck. Yum.

I'm not sure if this is good or bad. Lol.


December 28th, 2009
I just bought a 40" lcd! YAAAAAY!
looks fucking kickarse.
and the ps3 looks fucking sexy with it. gah.
i love my room ever so much more now

December 20th, 2009
feeling so urgh today.
it's getting to that point where i wish to escape australia.
there's nothing in particular that is wrong, it's just there's nothing keeping me here either.
i'm so bored with everything.
obviously, i would miss my friends dearly.
but seeing as how drewy is coming with me, and he would speak to louise all the time when we're over there.
i wouldn't be missing those two as much.
shanedog is obviously someone i would probably go crazy without seeing.
and my girls.
and... the boy.
i'll miss him quite a lot.

so ready for a new adventure.

last night was boring. friday night was crazy. still feeling hungover from it.
got drunk in a pool. good times.
a bottle of jager all to myself. and various shots of wild turkey.
not sure how i got home. last thing i remember was being in the pool. then i woke up in bed. wtf.

i was europe noooow.
booking tickets in february, cause thats when the next expo is on, so earlybirds will be released.
wanna fly with emirates because they have a 30kg baggage limit -drool-
so might end up spending $400 more on the fare, but at least i get to bring more stuff home! woot.

well. i'm gonna go do stuff.

tata now.

December 13th, 2009
last night i had sex in the back of a shaggin' wagon in a car park at the beach.

that's a new (fun) low.

couldn't get anymore cliche if i tried.

i want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart. [Wednesday
December 9th, 2009
so, just bought a 26" HD monitor for my comp. Woot.
gonna be able to play the ps3 on sweet sweet HD. ohhh yeah.
(wasn't playing it on full HD before, will be now! :D )

the boy.
is amazing. and crazy. all at the one time.
i'm not sure where we're at.
but i love it. we're so perfectly dysfunctional :)

told my boss today that i hated her.
was pretty shit.
gonna try and get transfered to another store.
something closer to home, please.

blinkie blink on friday with my hayleypants and stupidmonkey.
pretty sure nate is coming along.

well. i'm going to go watch coraline and then sleepy time.

things that i know. [Monday
November 23rd, 2009
i know that there is so much more to you than you let on.
i know that this could be something.
i know that the way you smile at me, isn't how you smile at everyone else.
i know that you hold back.
i know what is going to happen.

and i wish i didn't.

November 14th, 2009
the amount of penis pics i have on my phone is ridiculous.
i could start a porn site.

November 13th, 2009
called in sick today.
bec and i are gonna hang out instead.
we have lots of fun plans

then brendans coming over.
he's gonna write my cover letter.
he's forcing me to apply for a job at salon kittys. lmao.
not as a mistress, as a receptionist...
so i figure, if hes making me do it, he can write the cover letter.

then going over to drewys and we're figuring out travel details, etccccc.
gonna go over a few contiki tours and figure out which one we wanna do.
ive got two in mind.

spending two and a bit montsh over there.
the contiki tour goes for 29 days.
it doesnt go to spain or around the greek islands though (it goes to corfu, but i wanna check out mykonos and all the other pretty ones)
so we're gonna do spain for a week, the greek islands for a week, then spend a month in italy.
its going to be epic!

so like.. [Sunday
November 8th, 2009
i feel like shit. i've decided to end my friendship with alcohol.
at least for a week.

last night was fun.
but it totally reaffirmed my belief that all males are stupid.
convinced 4 guys that i dont really know all that well to send me cock pix.
and they did.
without me sending anything in return.
they're so gullible, i almost feel mean.

it was pretty amusing though, kept showing the pics to lesbians, and they were getting freaked out. hahaha.

went through maccas in reverse, because rebels window doesn't wind down.
it was pretty much the most amusing thing i have ever done in my entire life.
the looks on the peoples faces of the car that was behind (infront?) of us. hahaha.

friday night was fun. got very drunk. ended up with a trip to the er ward. then back to my place for sex. very eventful night.

... so. what happens when you need a rebound for the rebound? eh.

October 27th, 2009
oh god.
i think i want him to be my boyfriend.
so cute.

not really.
just. kind of.
i'm so lame


its not even 9 and i'm going sleepytime.


cant wait for the weekend <3

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